Love.Story.

maybe it wasnt even meant to be
i guess i might have to let the strings go
i wont want my heart to bleed again
dont want myself to be fooled again
i'll be praying that u will change
to someone i hope u have been
seems it is all too late now
i guess u were just a fading rainbow

happy birthday to aishy!
well, ur 1st year of singlement =) like u wanted..

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HAPPY BDAE TO
AFIQAH!
*yay*

i'm officially 15! =))

afilyana; end of this chapter

in a another few moments
i'm going to start a new chapter of my life
chapter 15. whee~
hahakz. stupid.
okay. today was an okay day.

major part of day taken by f&n. hahakz.
stupid. all of us got alot of free time.
then used whatever ingredients there is in the kitchen
and just cooked. wakakaka. but nice lah.
one can of cream of chicken only. but 1/2 of class can share.

ml today was kinda crap.
the new jk finally had total control.
and we keep on preparing for farewell.
den during preparation, shaz, nai n aishy,
sang for me n raudha. so malu.
coz the whole studio sang.
i got a roxy pencilcase! -grins-
den kak haz aka nenek gave me ferrero rocher.
-beams-

so.. in a few moments...
i'm a year older.
hopefully wiser.
tmr got 4 diff plans. hehez.
after tmr, no more play.
mug n mug n mug.
yay!

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i'm freaked out
there's bio test tmr
and exams less than a mth away
i dont feel ready at all
chem & amaths - my biggest worry
i've come this far to think of failure now
but i just dont know whether i can make it
what is waiting for me at the end of the year?
am i still gonna be a cedarian?
all these thots are really freaking me out
what if all these becomes a reality?

i know God is always watching over me
but i still gotta find the confidence in me
omg, what is gg on with me?
i must search tt confidence within me
or i will let myself down again

afiqah, u can do it.
pick urself up again, find tt confidence again.
it's just another exam.
a test for what u've learnt.
it's not the end of the world.

Confidence!

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slowly the holidays are coming to an end.
i dont feel good bout it. who does?
i'm freaking scared for exams.
and yes, my hmwk is only halfway done.
i've been reenergizing myself too much during the hols.
plus i went to the 2-day course.

oh man, the course rocks.
i love my sisters there.
bonded closer with some.
oh yeah, we gt confessions to do within our grp.
den right, atiqah got the present coz she won it.
and it was from bro fad. -ggggrrrr-
he was super funny lahh... -melts-
hahahahaha... super kecoh lahhh..
esp when gg home in the 89 bus.
irfan said all of us should lie down.
so that the bus will have more space.
coz we were all seriously crowding into one bus.
barely having enough oxygen to breathe.
then i was sort of arguing with adli
the next day. during cleaning up.
over our work that was torn.
bluek. then kena teased bout bro.
-grins- just becoz we happened to be at the same place.
oh wells, the course was enlightening.
cant wait to get back with all of them in november.

seriously been slacking too much now.
i better get my butt up and going again.
no more korean movies for now. hahakz.
okayys. bdae in a wk time. -grinns-
love u all -muakz-
and u!! love you!!

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my favourite month is here!
yay! 13 more days to my bdae!
and 19 more days to first eye paper.
can i make it? dies-

yesterday was cedar open house.
me partner with aisyah.
only took one batch of parents to tour.
den veh tired. wah...i encountered qns tt i din even tot of.
me and aisyah panicked when the fussiness start.
den got this parent wanted to stray around.
die2 wanted to. no choice ms lavina had to allow her.
wahlau. stress man! den the deco this year is veh nice.
thanks to beloved mrs woo!
i wanted to take the BIG 'A' from the cedar word.
den siva took ready. =((
was fun lah the open house. was a good experience for me

after open hs, went to mummy hs.
kakak yaya engagement.
i came late. den my family and relatives were all there.
den i washed up and changed just in time before the guy's side came.
so farnie lah. my family so kecoh. like some were slacking in the rm
den when the ppl came oso everyone didnt realise. hahakz
den i had to wait till the guy's side went back b4 i could eat.
was super hungry i think i ate a little too much.
i had to become the rubbish bin. becoz all nvr finish their food.
den i had to finish them. =)
den i so tireddd. slack in the room.
it was fun to be with the whole family. crapping like crazy.

okayy...jz now mdrsh was so crap.
i din even study for the tests.
den the guys just had to ask the ustazah to start the test earlier.
wahlau. gonna get it frm me.
den i had to be oral-ed ferst. =(
i totally went blank. arab oral lah.
den liyana kept gg on abt mushtashfa which means hospital in arab.
hahakz. really. we kept teasing her bout it.
all of us crapped. esp when some of us finished oral sooo early.
den we had an hr of slacking time. =))

so pissed off seeing someone i loathe.
everytime must bump into him. irritating.
got pissed by 2 bitches. nvr think before they speak.
gggrrr-
so sept holidays...got xtra class, course n must study!
sheesh. i really need to be more disciplined if i wanna improve.
okayy gtg now. tmr gt amaths class. at 2! ggrrr-

i just dont know u anymore.
dont come running to us if u need help
go to ur new friends
whom u love to spend time with
and neglect all ur old frens
dont blame others
if they start hating u again
do reflect ferst
before saying it's not ur fault
i'm not gonna help u again
u're just not appreciative
i dont know whether to call u my friend.
or a stranger

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