Love.Story.

RHD' 05 was kind of boring. i dont really feel the atmosphere.
wore this kebaya sort of nyonya kind. den raudha did my hair. =)
was hard to sit lah. den summore gt mock CW B execution.
by the end of the practical, my legs were already killing me.
imagine baking etc in ethnic costumes.
achi, nyonya n makcik2.
hahahaha...my cakes were super disgusting.
i dont know what i put in there.

community singing was damn fun.
and all of us jz realised we gt emaths test.
oh wth. it's variation. i should have scored.
but looks like the class gonna do badly.
everyone totally forgot. wth.

at the end of sch, took lots of pics.
my cam low batt. pfftt..
wahlau. had to do drills today.
i juz had to take a break.
yunqian n sihui banned me frm joining the squad again.
coz i dont look too good. hmph. but i really need to practice.
ndp is in like less than 2 wks.

meet the parents was okay. only okay!
met mr suresh. and my mum who actually dont have anything to say.
suddenly got alot to say. 3/4 comments were gd. oh wth.
gonna prove him wrong! stupiak.
got pissed with my dad too. my mum rocks more. =)

went madrasah juz nw.
okay. i shall just be patient. well, madrasah was fun.
got my results. and yeah...=) so-so
we asked my tchr what happened at the end of the tragedy last sun.
got to know she passed away at tt time she was unconcious. =(
everyone was stunned. rest in peace.

i love yoga now! it's so great.
love my yoga partners : rin, nadia and celest!
i shall go sign up for more now. hahakz...

sorry sisters.

afilyana; end of this chapter

good things come when u least expect it.
i guess it is really true.
yest was south div day.
man...cedar so rocked!

outdoor cooking was a blast.
we got the tallest flag.
cheerleading was superb.
hehehz...
trivia and gadget was excellent too.
guess it was just too competitive.

congrats to my cheerleading squad.
we did it! last min work did pay off.
all the tears, the fears, the stress,
the freakiness, everything.
this south div comp bonded my batch together.
love my cheerleading squad!

we put on make up and styled our hair.
all done by nurul =)
we were still practising the hr before comp.
and yeah still modifying it.
most of us were freaking out.
and i almost wanted to give up.
but thanks to everyone who boost our morales.
magdelene was freaking out too. and kept us positive.
and yeah, it was our best performance.
despite shirlyn nearly fall during shoulder stand.
but it really show our teamwork.
i guess tt's why we were the champs! =))

before performing, our event was already postponed for an hr.
den the other schs were damn gd till we almost lost hope.
magdelene, being a real cheerleader herself, kept us positive.
announcing the results for outdoor cooking and flag,
we were really surprised. got 2nd and 3rd respectively.
pearlyn and keet were disappointed for their own events.
then when the results for cheerleading, we were damn shocked.
coz our competitors did not get top 3. and we thot we were judged by cheer only.
considering we only had 1 cheer. so we kinda gave up.
i was almost hiding under the chair and covering my ears.
and when they announced us as champs...we were all hysterical.
i even knocked my head. oh my... everyone went crazy and yeah...
others wanted encore but had no time.
mdm faridah sure must be proud of us. hehz..

at night went acs (br) gangshow.
damn pissed off with st nicks. wth.
and dat person just tao lor...wth...
the gangshow ended late by an hr.
wth. me and keet dragged ourselves home frm newton.
and well most of us werent feeling well.
was scary to be gg home alone at midnight.

had mdrsh juz nw. and i gt pissed at some ppl.
like what the heck. show attitude sia.
then witness a tragic incident.
and i teared. see the two kids helpless when ppl attending to their grandma.
the grandma fainted then no other family members except the two kids.
and the ambulance was so slow. and a stranger had to do CPR.
i mean where's the experts when someone is fighting for her life.
and i heard she's nt breathing. and the kids were crying.
i felt so sad. me and my friends experiencing it for the first time. man..
how life is so precious.. you wouldnt know when it will be u... sighs...

afilyana; end of this chapter

just had to let my feelings go.
heartfelt thanks to rin.
and aish and nai.

cheerleading in erm 2 days.
slowly losing grip.
jiayou dearies. just kick it all out.

`because of you - kelly clarkson

I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I’ve learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole to start with

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
Because of you
Because of you I am afraid
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don’t know how to let anyone else in
Because of you I’m ashamed of my life because it’s empty
Because of you I am afraid
Because of you

afilyana; end of this chapter

eyecandy everywhere!
saw someone at relative's wedding.
da performance was kinda shitty. no offence.
food was nice...practically drooling over brownies.

den yest saw tt someone..
and instantly my heart aches.
i know aishy, i shouldnt be.
but i dont noe, it's just a natural reaction.
how...??

this is a season for weddings and engagements.
alot of ppl i noe are getting married/engaged.
wth. ppl are already warning me.
no way man... not me!
not now...!!!

congrats to aishy darleeng and nadirah....
for getting into exco. happy for u peeps.
my turn coming soon. i dont wanna think bout it.
everyone's avoiding the topic about promotion.
i just get the creeps man...

term 3 is just so hectic and busy.
and i'm already faling sick.
not goooddd!!
it's just our psycho tt we are stressed aishy.
cmon we can persevere. must motivate each other tau!
sorry bout just now when i was pissed off.
where's my darleeng kakak? sibuk kejar vjc. haiz... takper lah..
okay...i wanna go do my hmwk...ciaoz!

`a new beginning =)

afilyana; end of this chapter

this post in dedicated to beloved form teacher of 3H.
Mrs Juila Woo.

3H made u cry today.
3H made u stress.
3H made u lose control of ur emotions.

but 3H noes u love us so much.
coz ur emotions show.
we love you too mrs woo.
i guess we are just too blinded and oblivious.

ur words touched us today mrs woo.
and 3H cried together.
we are gonna prove others wrong.
we are gonna follow u to the end of the tunnel.

[coz we are gonna be forever you and me.]

we wont make you cry anymore mrs woo.

[what's ahead is a different colour. one day we're gonna get so high]

afilyana; end of this chapter

phew. end of the second wk of term 3.
all thanks to God for giving me everything.
it has been quite a hell of a wk.

- 2 days without darling mrs woo.
- survived 3 periods of science.. 2 bio 1 chem..
- emaths and chem test. hmph.
- date with mrs woo was postponed! =(
- actually realised tt the whole wk i din go back with my sisters. =(
- had recess with my sisters since dunno when.
- pastry practical was seriously crazy. everyone started cursing & swearing.
- cedar got top 5 for YESCOM!
- i'm free...like a bird let out from a cage.

okay basically tt's all i can rmb. as i was saying, i'm now free.
free and easy. i love my life now. single and loving it.
feminism rocks! =)
went rockclimbing juz now. to celebrate shaza and shara bdae.
so, 7 of us went. i had difficulty making up my mind.
rock climbing at tanjong pagar. so fun!

went makan at nearby coffeeshop. coz we were kinda late.
den we started at ard 4 plus. so late lahh...
i climbed thrice. got improved abittt...
i learnt how to belay. yay! thanks aishy.
but must work harder if not aishy will start screaming.
wakakaka... thanks aishy for bring us dere. it was fun.
instructor at work ryte....hahahahahaha...
we left quite late. and yeah...practically rushing.
tell u arh... we were very noisy and chaotic..
dat when we left the place, can sense the silence.
wakakakaka... overall i had fun. well, i needed a break.
and if i were to stay in sch for cheerleading....i would have die.

okays. i'm juz crapping. tmr got cheerleading.
den got my relative wedding. haizzz...
at perkampungan melayu. wakakakaka....
eyecandy! =))

okie... i wanna zzz now... ciaoz!

[i've never regret falling in love with you.
but i'm glad i got to know it now.
at least i wont let myself fall any deeper.]

afilyana; end of this chapter

heyo ppl! i'm back again since more than a wk.
been soo caught up with sch stuff ah.
and havent had much chance to slack.
alot of things happening ard nw... so eyes must be wider open.
let me run down what happened for the past wk.

1) went back to a disgusting yellow class.
2) new timetable =( more double maths and double sci.
3) briefing on guides activities for the rest of the year. =(
4) CIP at senior citizens day activity centre. was nicknamed chinese bte.
5) learnt the laughing therapy with da senior citizens. *laughs*
6) bonded with some of my guides here! =))
7) study time with aishy and my buddies. =))
8) olevel oral... =((
9) banquet lunch with buddies. =))
10) i/c for friday's guides session for sec 2s.
----thanks to my fellow guides for cheering me on.
11) YESCOM! =))
12) cried badly after nearly 2 mths of not crying.
13) met my new fren on my way to sch.
14) found some new frens.
15) learnt sth bout someone overseas. =)) *muakz*
16) mdrsh rocked! as usual..
17) met that someone who broke my heart... loathe you!
18) pressurized by teachers. oh wells.... ='(

yeps..i guess that's quite alot ready. btw, YESCOM was crazy!
shopped alot. hmmz...kak latifah, atiqah and me do the banner.
it was more like a party banner. and so were the "streamers".
hehz. then got aerobics, well, we overenthu and went to join.
wth. it was more like a para-para session. so malu!
then me kak latifah and atiqah volunteered to go up on stage.
and guess wat? we had to do a malay dance! ahemz.
it's been quite some time since i dance lahh!! so malu.
me and kakak attracted to this person over at aljunied stall. =))
overall, i think we did quite well. and i met a few ppl i usually dont meet.
like, muzdalifah and my 2nd cousins. and well my pri sch buddy, rachel!
and i just had to meet tt bast*rd who happens to be my neighbour.
oh wells, gladly to say, i've enjoyed myself. well, and i learnt alot too.
u gain some, u lose some. we will get thru it keet! we can!

till next time, ciaoz.

afilyana; end of this chapter

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