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whee~ it's da time of the year again. yep...teachers happy arh get presents. i gave da homemade cookies to ms wan, ms lee n cikgu. all i put at mailtray coz da staffroom area wuz damn packed lar. pasar malam oso not liddat one... migawd wuz so hard to get to da mailtray area. want to die of suffocation liddat. da concert wuz okay lar. i love da 3h performance. it rocks! when da teachers received their gifts...ms wan's wine glass wuz da xtra one. coz we bought a replacement for it. n it wuz different frm da original one. michelle wuz not present today. so fungmei present it to ms wan. n xinmei present da gift to ms lee. luckily i din haf to go. aft workout, we roam ard sch. watched teachers' play. we dun always get to see teachers' playing bball or captains ball. so cute. even ms leong play..not bad.

den aft da whole celebrations, went back to epps wif adlin...my jnr. at least she's da only one who acknowledge n remembers me. not lyk da other one who doesn't even smile. lyk helloooo i'm her senior...n she does noe me coz i used to be a prefect in pri sch. wth lar...lyk i care.... da trip to epps wuz a long one. missed da bus so we were late lar...

reached elias park n omigawd....i wuz so anxious to meet teachers n my frens lar. waited for surayya n farzana so long dat i went up wif liana to meet cikgu first. n boy...i missed cikgu!! she rocks! even met cikgu nordin...my fav cikgu too... i missed my pri sch... it still upgrading.. n it wuz very noisy lar... met mrs nasir on my way down to da canteen. wira wuz waiting for me lar...den i take my own sweet time.. my frens were all waiting for me... boy, when i met dem it wuz lyk.... "Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh" n *huggggsssssss* migawd...it wuz damn noisy wif all our screams n laughters...n hugs. wat a reunion lar...dey say i looked diff maybe coz i haf longer hair now. met wira at da canteen. yep...thanx for letting me see ur sch's yearbk. :) i wuz so happy to be back...gosh...words can't describe my feelings....juz gonna pour out w/o stopping lar... even wira looked diff... too bad faiz wuzn't dere. ernest, martin, shikai, xiao teng all looked diff. sighs..din see weihan lar... so long nvr see him ready. migawd...i wuz juz so happy lar...i wuz juz beaming all along...remembering those days...hahax...

kk...i juz can't stop lar...but i hafta end here now. to all my beloved teachers...happy teachers' day. thanks for all ur guidance n support. lurve ya n miss ya :)

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well...i juz came back from my aunty's hs in woodlands..took a nap before gg home coz i wuz drowsy...n on da way home oso i slp... as usual lar...i very sleepy ready my head drowsy lyk hell...gosh.. i guess i hafta see a doc. today wuz my first time doing epok-epok...haha...abit da tiring lar...den tried to studied...but my head gets dizzy everytime i study..hahax..yest i went home late...lyk very late...reached home nearly midnite.. i went to ACS barker scouts gangshow...n wow...it rocked!!! i'm currently having a major crush on marcus, one of da emcees. gosh....migawd..he's lyk so cute lar....so farnie...enuff ready...hehe... 'begged' keet to send me to kembangan mrt station instead of newton...if i had gone home myself...god noes what will happen to me...i tell u arh....da gangshow rock lyk hell...we won best supporting contingent...we cheered lyk wat...now my voice lyk abit da farnie... migawd...i can't stop talking bout marcus...hahaz...keet n me were crapping n counselling each other on da way home...we even talked bout guys in front of keet's dad. migawd... it's comforting to noe that at least i haf sumone to talk to about problems in guides.... keet...i lurve u!! i'm thankful to have gotten closer to u!! okie then...i tink i hafta go to slp now...it's rather late ready... toodles...

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yest wuz x-cty. thank god din run. heard frm da rest dat it wuz so exhausting coz got alot of steep hills. did duty. da sight of milo wuz making me puke. blardie ppl lar...we tell to take da milo from the tables instead of the truck...den dey show attitude problem. lyk wth. shao min wuz so pissed. well...aft that cleared everything n yeah finally get to sit down. wuz lyk damn blardie tired..nvr sit down for 3-4 hrs. walking everywhere. Baoyue n Ying Ting got top 20. good lar. den took last pic wif saranya. sho sad...she's leaving...gonna miss her..

aft x-cty, went to j8 wif jayjay,dirah,far,aish,naz n rin. gosh...aft lunch some of us were in a bad mood lar. i wuz pissed. n i wuz so damn scared that when jayjay say she tak jadi nak bake cookies...i wuz so pissed coz she could haf tell me earlier then i could haf gone home earlier. my mum would haf killed me if she noes i go j8 den balik lambat den nvr bake cookies summore. hah. budden, we still bake lar...sorrie hor jayjay if u feel forced to bake da cookies. lyk u weren't da onlie one in a bad mood. i wuz juz scared lar yest thanks to my mum.

at my hs, wanted to blast music...budden my parents came home. argh. made a terrible mistake in da first place. mixed up da 2 recipes wif diff amts. argh...thot that da cookies weren't gonna turn out nice. budden, da cookies were damn nice lar. double chocolatey taste! hahax. i shall name it "chocolatey flakes" hahax...it's for da teachers...budden i shall still remember to give 2 impt ppl in my lyf...my 'adik' n my dear 'grandmother'.

hahax...kkiez...sorie if i've made anyone pissed at me yest. wuz juz too moody lar..u noe i'm born wif a depressing mood wat...kkiez....

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okay...after days of depression now i'm finally falling sick. oh wow. i juz feel so down. i wanna be loved again. sighx...not dat i dun haf any parents or anything. it's juz that i feel so down...my mum doesn't seem so supportive...well..can't blame her... who else can i depend to... noone. n dat's bad. so yeah...heck arh...noone noes bout my feelings anyway. went to GH juz now. followed my parents. n guess what? fate wuz not on my side, for i'm 90% confirmed getting a baby girl. n dat's gonna suck. oh well...seems that when i get another sib..den my parents won't care dat much bout me ready. esp when it's a girl. n i wun be da only daughter den. *sobs* no joke...for i'm really crying. i'm so gonna be left out by everyone n yeah...i wun be dat cared for anymore. sighx...argh...heck arh...da more i lyk this...da more i feel down. noone noes my feelings. bet ya noone loves me....

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sighz...this wk has been one long n depressing wk for me. dunno why. maybe pms-ing. but yeah, my longest depression period ever. tests n tests. bi*ches ard me. one prob aft another. i'm here depressed n yet i ask ppl to cheer up. wat bout me? sighx. i'm so confused!!i studied n stressed up myself for my common tests. n yesh, wat did i get? almost a pass. wow. i spot stoopid careless mistakes. sheesh. so gonna kill myself. sci prac got gd marks...n yet CT i failed. wow. careless again. fine lar, forget bout this tests. no use crying over them. one prob aft another. one stress aft another. work has been piling up. frens haf been quite irritating. a class wif depressing ppl is quite irritating. even when i ignore, it's lyk as if sumone asked me to or wtvr. it's my own will my own opinion. i'm not lyk an idiot whu juz follow blindly. sighx. dun care ready arh. dun wanna waste my time. even now i feel that i'm quite distant frm sum of my close members. sighx.. everythings changing.

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It's been a wk since NDP @ Cedar, but only now i could update bout it. Well, it wuz my first time performing in Cedar during NDP. We mixed JT dancesteps together wif FT dancesteps. The tarianers for NDP were: Me, Kak Lisa, Murny, Aish, Naz, Nadia, Suhana, Aisyah Sharifah, Shara, Kak Haz & Arini.

Me n Murny came ard 645 liddat. We changed out of our red-white costume to our tarian costume. We only get to see the costume during our full-dress rehearsal last wed. ick. today's performance need to use make-up again. haiyah.

kak Jannah did my make-up. well, she actually experimented on me. n boy, did it turned out nice. can become make-up artist lar. hahax.. one thing i hate bout tarian performance is that we spent so much time preparing ourselves for just a few mins performance. cikgu, as usual, did our hair. n boy, i hate it. cikgu laughed at me n said that this is her time to get even wif all of us...n stuck pins into our hair...ouch..it hurts so much. i look so red today...maybe becoz our costume is lyk soooo red. hahax.

today, our last dance together for NDP'04. w/o mats. nth. bare-foot on the courtyard grounds. ouch. aish wuz still applying glitter on my eyes when it wuz nearly our turn to perform. we screamed n boy, everyone looked at us. hahax...*pai-sei lerx*

danced to da song dondang...din expect that the dance will fit da song perfectly n many ppl said it wuz nice n lively. oh wow...but to us it wuz our worst performance. yahlar...we had many practices...n yet we got mistakes. sharifah's samping came off during da dance. most of us stepped on our kain during da dance. i screwed up rite in front of da VIPs. oh wow...da 2nd circle wuz horrible to us...we were even giggling a lil bit. n i wuz "shit" all da way. omigawd. it wuz humiliating. but yet, many ppl said it wuz nice.

we joined da rest of da sch in da MPH. i screamed for Runi when her name wuz called. n cheered for kak ain n kak arina too. hahax. crazy. den we sang da community songs. i lurve singapore. every time we sing community songs, there is this feeling of pride for Singapore. had fun being enthu wif da rest of the tarianers. n esp da song "we are singapore"...wuz fun at da part where "this is my family. this are my friends" and at dat moment i wuz standing in btwn haz n suhana. oh boy...nice family....

took photos..ate da catered food. waited for Runi sooo long to take picture wif her... hahax...nice family photo...next time i update into this entry. wuz supposed to go malay village wif da family to send back da costumes. but me n suhana were late. n we din even get to go TM. sighx...can't go out wif my frens. thanx to my mum. i'm juz sad that NDP'04 is over. i wished i could perform again. but that has been my last tarian for da year 2004. n this year's tarian experience has been enlightening n enriching.

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