Love.Story.

my day started okay.
wif me slping aft my eng summary assignment.
really slping. den for malay, crap as usual.
so i wuz awake.
tried to make myself stay awake during ss.

den during reading, crapped wif danielle,raudha n yanti.
mrs woo damn cute lah.
coffee really keeps me awake.
for bio, amaths n chem. heheh.
i couldnt understand mrs chaiw.
she keeps calling me afiyah. hahakz. we were trying to correct her.
when she finally got it right, we clapped. bahaha.
i can bet dat she'll call my name wrongly again da next time.

i'm getting scared for campfire. after hearing out the progress.
it's south div campfire dis fri. aaahh!!
i missed eng remedial. i din noe bout it.
dearie. sorry i din go hor. din tell me earlier. heheh.. dammit. i missed all four remedials.

oh...updating bout nus sajak. it totally rocks.
except da fact dat me n kakak saw da ppl we din want to.
brought me back my bad memories. basket. takde cara nye lelaki.
met my darleeng surayya. love her loads.
cedar lost. SA won. changkat changi wuz 2nd. dey were damn cute. 3rd wuz broadrick.

i miss my darleeng munirah, my beloved sistaz,
my darleeng surayya.
oh..kak lin came yest. so happy. coz i so long nvr see her.
den i talk2 to her. aahh..cuzin-to-cuzin talk. i love her.
had cuzin-to-cuzin talk wif abg ali oso.
long time nvr talk to him too.
i love my beloved cuzins.
dey are dere when i need their advice. =)
munirah!! i miss u loads.
thanks for da song yeah. so touching.
for my sistaz. i really miss da times i had wif u guys.
times haf changed. i'm so sad. =(
nevertheless, thanks for being dere aitex.
love u sayangs alots.

tmr speech day. yay. mummy coming back.
so missing her. my sayang. my family oso coming back. =)
i'm so excited!!

btw, sth happened on 270305. well, my family will noe yeah..?
good or bad. i dunno yeah..
i love my sayangs. alot alot!! bahahahahhahahah...

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Bila Rindu Dikeheningan malam,
Termenung ku berseorang
Tak lena mata dipejam
Terdengar suara terngiang
Suara merdu yg disayang
Bagai kau didepan mata
Ku capai tapi tak kena
Sukarnya memendam rasa
Ingin ku luahkan kata

Chorus
Bila rindu,
Terkenang mu sayang, terasa sayu,
Syahdunya jiwa ku bila malam makin kelam,
Jauh terbang diri ku melayang,
Aku rindu,
Sentuhan mu, ku rasa sayu,
Inginkan jiwa mu selubungi jiwa ini,
Bawa ku dalam pelangi,
Melepasi batas diri ini.

Jauh angan ku lena
Kurasa kita bersama
Kau bawa daku kesana
Ke alam kisah yang lama
Kenangan didalam jiwa
Bila terjaga semula
Disisiku kau tiada
Sukarnya ku pendam rasa
Inginku luahkan semua

Chorus Bridge Spoken words
Sesungguhnya kita mestilah
Wujudkan sefahaman dan hormat menghormati
Ikhlas kasih
Sabar insyAllah kita akan
Bertemu semula
Aura yang memecah semesta
Menyampaikan pesan kesunyian dikala sendirian
Kesepian menyelubungi hari-hariku
Disajikan dalam doa-doa rindu
Yang menanti kau datang dan pergi
Seperti mimpi-mimpiku fantasiku
Bukan dongeng lagi yang sayup kedengaran
Disisi cuping di setiap corong
Lorong yang lohong
Benar ku tak bohong
Bila hati menyanyi

Chorus

-heheh. i'm addicted to this song all of a sudden. i like the tune lahh. heheh. and the meaning too. bahaha. tmr leaders investiture. i'm so sick of it. i only like the dance. i love my shaking-bon-bon partner.. we always shake & dance together whenever we hear music. dat crazy gurl is none other than regina!! i cant tahan anymore. sometimes i dun see the point of being nice. like the world is nvr fair. argh!! i cant wait for holiday..i want a break!! i'm currently sick both physically and emotionally. bahaha..-

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things will be great when u look at it positively
well try to. and it is good.
things haf been okay since sch reopened.
i've beginning to accept my fate.
but i'm nt giving in this time. it wuz nt my decision.
why do alot of ppl tink it's my fault..fine... juz make ur own conclusions
as long as u ppl are happy.

leaders invest this thurs - camaraderie
spirit of togetherness
i'm only performing. mrs low say it's better.
coz i've like learnt the steps and all.
okayy. but someone is like making it like my fault. wth.
wats wrong wif u huh?

sth farnie happened during bio. i wuz darn slpy.
me n kiat were already slping.
mrs chaiw wuz lyk
"it's either u guys are too tired or the weather is too hot"
bahaha...
den i tried to make my eyes big.. to show i wuz paying attn.
den suddenly my head fall back.. geddit..
it's like i'm slping wif my eyes wide open. bahahahaha..

went pp macs aft sch. somehow got alot of us dere.
murny n irah went first. den danielle, sandhya n val were already dere.
at another table. i came wif raudha n shaz. dragged my kakak along.
while waiting for aishy. den my twin, nailah, popped out. aahh..so fun..
we were juz crapping n crapping n crapping.
oh wth..it wuz darn fun. murny wuz so blur.
make all of us blood boil. bahaha.. making a hell of a noise.
ermz...lyk duh..where got cedarians so quiet one.. bahaha...

den went to townpark by 89. made sure i din make myself embarassed like tt time.
heheh. my sisters would noe. bahaha.. den khalis n azlan were already at townpark.
waiting for aishy n shaz. ermz..those guys are their drama frens.
dey recently performed for our religious sch (cordova) at our haflah event.
too bad i missed it. heard it wuz darn fun. those guys were damn crappy. so farnie.
so jealous of their class lahh.. my class, it's only me n my frens who are the crappy n noisy ppl.
so sadd...

den went home kena scolding by my dad.
bout my hp bill.
oh wth. i'm trying my best. my bill not tt bad wat.
okay okay. sorie. fine. but dun take away my fon!! =(

oh we got back PPR today.
so sad. everyone failed at least 2 0r 3. most of us failed more.
i failed 5 tests. *sobs*
but my malay got A1 okayy!! so happy!! my eng oso improved.
my amaths sux. bio everyone failed. duwan to show my parents tonite.
so dead lahh.. *sobs*

orite..better do my F&N now.. toodles *peace*

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wats the use of being nice
wats the use of being good
noone appreciates
what do i get in return
hurt & anger

typical ppl wif their oh-so-high ego
ppl are hurt by their ego
guys are so typical
typical typical

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juz came back frm malacca.. omg... the trip so rock... lyk totally.. ahakz... bitchy influence... all of us somehow all turned crazy n bimbotic. bahaha...well...me, aishy n raudha were the latest ones to reach sch yest. mrs lim wuz frantically calling us when we were frantically flagging an EMPTY cab. so the frantic ppl finally got a frantic cab n reached sch soo late n frantic teachers were heaving a sigh of relief. sat wif aishy all the way until aft tuas customs.

at tuas departure hall, all of us were making so much noise. n we're nt da only tour grp ard. so as cedarians who are nvr nvr gracious are juz enjoying themselves waiting for our turns. den when we board another tour bus, i sat wif kak khalis. i'm her psychic. yeah...we met aunty margeret dere. we called her mummy margeret tho.

slept while she talked...she damn farnie. den we stopped at the pineapple n rubber plantation. da pineapple wuz damn nice lah. so sweet. den we made our way to the oil palm plantation. at every stop we went, we made sure all of us did "yam seng" including the police official. bahaha.. we cheered oac cheers..lyk wth...all of us missing oac soo much...ryte...well...actually yes...

made a few more stops n we finally had our lunch at this place where single-mother ppl cook. kampung style. damn nice.. sumhow got conflict within sec 2s. but all of us were juz enjoying ourselves. maisha n her ondeh-ondeh. n we juz cant stop taking photos. oh..we did stop at yong peng for breakfast where we juz having so much craziness meeting ppl n stuff..

den we went to the rice plantation...where the few of us skipped it...coz we went to pray...heheh.. den we finally made our way up to malacca. somehow we cant keep ourselves awake. sure most of us will zzz... but mummy margeret wuz damn cool n sporting lah... she still have the youthfulness in her...

den off we went to malacca, stopped at some shops in muar, too lazy to go down. me n buddies stayed and zzz in da bus. margeret damn sporting lahh...majority of us were drooling our ways to malacca.

i wuz controlling my bladder till we get to our apartment... but apparently dere wuz only one working lift and over hundred of us waiting.. and our apartment is all da way up at da 10th floor.. aishy and her wa-ga-ga-ga madness...n we were juz having a hell of a time in da lift. it wuz raining..more like small tsunami..n the whole place wuz dark lahh...

so we settled into our apartments, which wuz smaller than expected...supposedly me, raudha, aishy n khalis in 1 room...i'll elaborate later... all of us were excited for dinner n shopping..!! ate at baba n nyonya restaurant..sat at one biggg table together with other 10 peeps. wuz damn fun.. cedarians nvr behave graciously.. yeah...many incidents happened...hilarious... aishy did sth unexpected to mrs lim. i wuz stunned.. wassup mrs lim... wagagagaga...

den da moment we all were waiting for...SHOPPING!! bahaha... running sia.. like amazing race. even tho we had 2 hrs. but it's barely enuff. n i tell ya..120 bucks is barely enuff.. it wuz megasale summore.. bought bag, matching slippers wif mah sistas, gifts, bolster!..etc... it wuz crazyy...all of us gg wagagaga.. madness.. bought food.. for our mini party in apartment. and i wuz gg belacaning all over... khalis would noe... i wuz darn pissed coz of belacan..

den we had our madness party... pizza anyone.. planned to serbu this bunch of ppl...we were all screaming when we saw a ghost on tv... n we started sharing ghost stories. so as gurls.. afraid.. all of us bunked into one room.. supposedly everyone including 3 sec 2s... so it's total 9-10 ppl in one small room... so me, aishy, nuzie n raudha were squeezing on the small beds... we gave the ppl slping on da floor our comforters.. in the end they din slp in our rm but slept at another apartment. so poor us...we had to freeze.. i wuz hugging aishy n nuzie...body heat. bahaha...

den the next morning... all couldnt wake up...late night parties...visited historical places n dey are okayy.. shopping again at the roadside bazaar. i wuz darn happy finally..coz i got my belacan. heheh.. wth.. went lunch... everyone gg boinkers over coconut pudding. damn nice lahh.. went to honey bee farm. n the honey wuz nice but damn ex. more than 30 bucks for one blardie small bottle?? wth...

made our way back to sg. watched mean gurls on da bus. dunno hw many umpteen times. bitches n bimbos slping... whoops... i slept nearly 2 hrs... we were all having difficulties managing wif our bags n shopping stuff.. at least me n my buddies did. wth did i spend my money on.. damn.. i'm broke..

aitez..that conclude the hilarious n madd trip to malacca.. i wanna go againnn... if only we had more money to stay on..apparently all of us were bankrupt.. gdnite ppl.. hearts u all.. miss my kakak loads...

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damn excited. damn sad.
missing someone veh badly.
even tho it's only been a day.
now i nw how she felt when me n aishy were at camp.
i miss shazzz!! at least i haf aishy...but she oso dunno where on earth nw.
where da hell are my sisters??!!

tmr gg to malacca..!!
my grp got : me (leader), aishy!!, raudha!!,yanti!!, nuzie!!, serena, revethi & kak khalis!!
bahaha...i'm soo excited... even tho is packed wif all those stupid geographical n historical parts
i'm damn excited for the hotel n the makan part.

juz nw went mdrsh...poor zah..
some of da guys were oready slping. me trying to keep da gurls awake..
apparently me, hafiz, hasif were the only ones responding to zah.
bahaha...ustazah aishah got wedding.. so no sweets frm her...

haf been veh lethargic today. supposed to start on hmwk.
bt me being so lazy, i haven even touch my bag.
holidays doesnt seem lyk a holiday. wif gg back to sch...ccas..cip..extra classes...boohoohoo
i super hate thurs. da whole day in sch. wth.
8.30-9 (meeting) 9-12 (emaths!! *sobs*) 1.30-5 (f&n)
super irritating lahh...cant fetch my dearest kakak frm airport. wth..i'm super nt happy!
oryte..i gotta pack for tmr...toodles ppl! *smuakz*

feelings ryte nw: irritated, tired, mean, hurt, confused, missing
happy bdae to dear: buddy Verena & Fathul Hakim...

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I would give up everything
Before I'd separate myself from you
After so much suffering
I've finally found a man that's true
I was all by myself for the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heart it would not subsideI felt like dying
Until you saved my life

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful I found you

I would give you everything
There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do
To ensure your happiness
I'll cherish every part of you
Because without you beside me
I can't surviveI don't wanna try
If you're keeping me warm each and every night
I'll be all right
Cause I need you in my life
See I was so desolate
Before you came to me
Looking back I guess it shows that we were destined to shine
After the rain to appreciate
And care for what we have
And I'd go through it all over again
To be able to feel this way

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude

Sweet baby
I'm so thankful I found you

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i survived a term of sec 3.
a term of being monitress.
well, today conclude my monitress days.
i've finally accepted the fate tt i got.

today haf f&n..whoosh..we finished our food during recess.
spent recess in f&n room. den mrs woo bought for us choc cake..
for the jan-apr babies. damn sweet lahh her... =)
missed the chance to talk 2 my dears drg recess..
well who noes it mite be da last time..
coz tmr mite nvr come..

skipped emaths remedial. coz had malay test.
den walk pass again.. mrs chew wuz giving me tt "why are u walking ard...arent u supposed to be having test" look..dammit... bahaha...

guides wuz fun.. campfire prep.
made my famous honey cornflakes. n dampers.
dampers turned out horrible.
honey cornflakes wuz okayyyy...but tasted wierd abit..

took some for my dear sisters... to cheer dem up...hahakz...
dey were happy...well...maybe..
i din wanna go for tarian..
coz i dun wanna feel hurt again..

went back home wif shaz, aishy, haz, ana, elyana n raudha...
wat a big grp...n according to ms leong...
big grp can lead to rioting..bahaha...

i'm anti-bumblebee nw. well, sort of. coz all are the same. irritating..
tmr shaz gg off to gold coast. gonna miss her, i tink. =p
at least i'm gg malacca wif aishy.
dammit..i juz realised in chem period tt i'll be stuck in sch for da whole thurs..
den cant fetch kakak.. omg.. dammit..dammit..argghh!!

oryte..happy hols everyone.. maybe not...dun seem lyk hols to me..all packed.. sighs..
happy bdae to kak nana!! *muakz* n to hafiz too....happy bdae..
n i've gotta admit i'm gonna miss my sisters...love u dears..!!

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sometimes i wish i juz wanna go away
sometimes i wish i duwan to be here anymore
sometimes i wish this isnt it
sometimes, sometimes

what did i do wrong
what did i do to deserve this
what did i do to have suffer this
what did i do to be living like this

why must i care
why must i think bout the rest
apparently no one cares
so why must i care

things may not go my way
things may not go the way i need it to be
things may not go the way i want
but god always give the best,
this is what i've been trying to influence myself, but i noe i cant
coz this is what has happened, this is what i haf to accept
no matter hw hard it is, no matter hw many sacrifices i haf to make.

-sorry my sisters, to haf made u guys worry bout me. it's time i go away.-

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HIGH
by lighthouse family

When you're close to tears remember
Someday it'll all be over
One day we're gonna get so high
And though it's darker than December
What's ahead is a different colour
One day we're gonna get so high

And at the end of the day
We'll remember the days
We were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through
And at the end of the day
We'll remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
We'll remember it was me and you

'Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
Always keep me flying high in the sky of love

Don't you think it's time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day we're gonna get so high
'Cause even the impossible is easy
When we got each other
One day we're gonna get so high

And at the end of the day
we'll remember the days
we were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through
And at the end of the day
We'll remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
We'll remember it was me and you

'Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
Always keep me flying high in the sky of love

-Mrs woo juz rocks..!! she listened to this song. And the more she listened, the more she tinks it applies to 3h. hahakz...we all were listening n we were so touched by her love n care... love u loads mrs woo.. i wun disappoint u any further...n i'll make 3h win-

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i cant take it no more.
if u cant accept me, why voted me
so much for class bonding
well...actually i did bond wif most of da class
oh please, actions speak louder than words
dun pretend nemore
coz ive feelings,eyes n ears

it aint easy
should i juz give it up
no, this is juz an obstacle
but i cant take it anymore

thanks dearies for hearing me out
ppl lyk my sisters, grace, shireen, celesta, nadia, raudha, yanti, hui ling...sighs...
i cant take it nemore...
plz. dere's sth i gotta do..!!

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