Love.Story.

hehehe... spposed to go to Escape but it has been raining frm evening. went out wif iqah, aishah n munirah to tamp. watched kungfu hustle. damn farnie! laughed till sides hurt. den went delifrance to eat. rushed back to iqah's hs to pray. wahlau..her hs nt bad sia.

kak hanim bday today..den when she went down the stairs...we sang for her...lyk abit the lame.. she sent us back hm. hehe..so nice...

well, i hafta get back to my family gathering nw. toodles.. n happy new yr!

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orite. this gonna be my last entry for the year. won't be able to update tonite coz aft lunch, i'm gg out n at nite (hopefully) we'll be gg to eScapE n counTdown dere too! lyk we did last yr so my cuzins n me wanna make it lyk a tradition. hopefully the rain stops!!

orite my bel0ved sistas, 2005 is approaching fast. hopefully we'll acheive what we wanted to do. we'll not lose hope n keep on supporting one another aitez. n ppl, whatever decision/resolution u make, be sure tt it's gonna be one that u'll not regret n it's not hard to acheive.

god. sch is starting soon. uh-0h. i still got unfinished hmwk. sheesh. die! well, gonna finished tonite!! i dun care!! hehe! rite...

orite..ppl..happy new year...may u get to acheive ur resolutions...
to my sistaz...lurve ya loads! good luck!
to my dear frens..happy new yr...see ya ard!! -muakz-

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*yawns* date check - 4 more days of fun!

aint looking forward to another year of opening bks,facing teachers n papers n juz coming to sch for study. but i obviously i wouldn't want to remain in da past rite. i'm damn excited for da new yr to come coz new yr means new memories, new changes, new stuff etc.. dun forget frens sudahh..

juz nw went to sch early sia. met shaz n aishy at mrt. den took a cab coz shaz wuz late ready. den make noise in da cab n eat2 macs. den me n aishy reached quite early so we went to get sth at the canteen. quite surprised to see other ppl earlier den us. i thot the sch will still be deserted. well, guess not.

den the setting up cca exhibition n stuff wuz chaotic but FUN! well, kinda. tiring. searched the whole sch to find da aunty wif the room keys. in the end, we got it sumhow frm the office. everyone wuz rushing2 get things prepared coz parents n sec 1s were all ard.

da sec 1s n their parents very cute lehx. their questions all are.. lyk unique n farnie. walked ard wif kain samping. da sec 1s skirt sooo, hehe, shall not comment further.juz rmb my sec 1 orientation. hahakz.. i tink i wuz liddat too. hahakz.

den aft waiting for shaz finish her ncc, we went to the mosque to pray. den we went to kovan bk n took neoprints!! hahakz!! den went to pasir ris beach coz all 3 of us seriously nid to haf a calm peaceful place to juz sit n relax. well, whenever all 3 of us 2geder, where can relax. laugh lyk hell! out of the box summore. hah!

sighs. 2005 coming. da 5 letter words must put to practice. i feel so second-needed. aish will noe wat i mean. sighs. i seriously hope 05 will bring a change for me. new memories n better character. coz i'll get depressed always if i remain like this. i hope for the best for the people i love n care abt. -amin-

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so many tings haf happened
n these tings haf made me reflect.
how short life is
n anything can happen with a blink of an eye.

the tsunami n earthquake really make me cry sia.
really nid to taubat/repent.
so sad to see many innocent lives lost.
n dey most were kids.

i'm really grateful to be living in spore.
not affected by disasters.
imagine one tsunami can wipe out da whole of spore larh.
so scary. must really appreciate everything & everyone ard me.

death can just come anytime.
migawd. so scary.
imagine a moment u're happy n having fun wif ur family or ur frens
da next day, u lost someone u loved.
so depressing rite.

i hope for the best for everyone. for my family..i love u!
for my best fren, Su.. i miss u... n take care. love ya!
for my sistaz, Shaz n Aishy, love u loads. patience. n 2005!
for all, appreciate what u haf now, coz we mite not haf another day.
-muakz

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no. i'm not denying it. i cant possibly be.
i can't possibly falling for it.
no!! it cant be!
i dun haf confidence n trust.

din follow my parents to johor today
aft dey went out, went to my grandma's hs for lunch
den aft tat, met aishy n yaya
went to central n den back to my hs

most of the time, slacked ler
ugh. but it wuz fun.
stomach can burst due to all the laughing.
*winks*

will do it again sometime soon.
n more professionally done. hehe.
i feel so happy aft doing it.
hah! dun play2 hor.

i'm really gg to finish my eng n malay. by tonite.
din really do much today, so feel guilty lah.
n tmr, munirah coming ready liaox. yay!

even tho we're juz frens, i dun forget ur bdae.
i take all tat i've been thru wif ya as a lesson for me.
what i can say tat now i'm not gg to fall into another trap again.
pls. god. help me.
help me find the right path.
pls my sistaz. help me aitez. i'm trying not to fall again.
i duwan to hurt other ppl feelings.
once is enuff to hurt a guy's feelings.

god. wat am i crapping??

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awoken by the sound of mum asking me to get ready. coz i wuz supposed to follow her to my bro's sch to buy his uniform. walau, queued juz for a bloody hr to buy lor. n i wuz pissed off by the kids dere n the mums whu were taking such a lo0oong time. argh!

den aft that i met shaz at...townpark.. hahakz..i din come late on purpose eh.. soo sweet rite shaz.. my words were true. it did happened.. :P

den went central, saw our fav coffee shop infested wif mats n minahs. ugh. den ate n i went to shaz hs. supposed to finish SS before 4.30. yet, we took so long..hehe..n i went off nearly 6. ick. luckily dad din kill me.

orite..tmr i'm gg to be alone at hm. yay. my parents n bro gg johor. n i've peace n freedom here. yahoo..

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hey hey hey

i'm back in spore. yups, yahoo!! my cuz n her family will be coming back on the 24th. i left home first. coz on fri i dun haf a confirmed seat. blah blah blah. ticketing stuff.

so today, i went back to sch. guides meeting. hahakz.. jet-lagged. so exhausted. i haven even finished unpacking. on da way to sch, went to pl ntuc to buy some stuff needed for guides. couldn't find it n i wuz blardie pissed off. started talking to myself. hah. keet yeng came...n she helped. but we couldnt find cooking choc that is cheap. so we headed to prime supermarket nearby our sch. by then we were late. bought watever we could find, met murny. n we dashed for sch. dey juz started anyway..phew.

yeah, r&r dept started to bake n stuff for seniors to sample our food for campfire. made pretzels, honey cornflakes n choc cake. hahakz..seniors were laughing at us seeing us doing work. me n shir were lyk blur queens trying to use the electronic weighing scale. sheena n candice oso cartoon.. as describe by wanru. hahakz. the pretzels turned out abit lyk biscuits. the choc cake even tho dun haf baking powder, it turned out nice n well-baked. n my famous honey cornflakes. hehe. even tho got not enuff ingredients for all, hahakz..i must admit.. we all did well for amateur bakers. val n zihui asked for cornflakes recipe. hahakz.. but theirs' turned out burn. yups, better luck next time yah. hahakz...look whu's the expert here. :P yay! three cheers 4 r&r!

aft that, kena thrashing i tink 20 mins. phew. luckily not an hr or more. den both companies hafta clean up the paint mess. i skipped... coz had to go back early. den in da aftnoon, i went to murny's hs. naz, azy, aishy were there too. plus aishy's cuz, shida. woah..shida is damn cute n very sweet. sure got loads of admirers.

den we all karaoke n jammed. murny got a new drum set. n a few electric guitars. so yeah, we kinda started a band. wif murny, aishy, naz, shida, me, dilah.. n i'm da vocalist..wth? hahakz..rite..

oritez...enuff of my day's updates. i'm getting tired of updating my daily work n stuff. next time must put poems or some miracle words. hahakz...crap. oritez..nid to unpack liaoz. ciaoz~

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sighs.. yest wuz kakak masykura's wedding. the day before, her husband (well-my cuz in law) converted to islam. den at nite, cik noh cooked the dishes. well, i escaped..n slacked ard at my cuz hs. attacked the com. previously, drg kakak insyirah's wedding..we cooked until morning. well, by tat time, me n my cuzins were all slping on the sofas. hahakz. so yeah, all the cuzins escaped frm cooking.

so yeah, it wuz exhaustic, chaotic etc. etc. etc. arggghh...hariz is so cuuteee... too bad he's my nephew. well, gg back in a few days. n yeah, my mum is expecting soon. oh yeah, din do much shopping here. juz bought a few clothes n stuff for my new baby sis. oritez...i cant wait to go back hm. miss my family...my baby sis...my sistaz...my frens...sighs.. cya ard ppl!

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melbourne...melbourne...juz gonna be here for a wk.. dat's it... sighs.. hmm..i miss my sistaz..my family..my frens... sighs.. i miss my com..my hp.. sobs

well...my sistaz..hope u guys are okay aitez.. shaz..no matter what decision u take..we'll support u all the way. we'll juz wait n see okie? for my lil sista, it's not the time yet rite? haha...we'll oso juz wait n see. 4 me, let's juz see where fate take me to. hahakz.. conclusion: JUZ WAIT N SEE!! hahakz...

kakak masykura's wedding this sat. hmmz..gonna be cooking this fri.. ain't gonna wait till 3 am lyk the past wedding when they finished cooking most of the food. migawd...

su..i miss u.. these are the times when i nid u most.. i nid u to hear my cries.. :( hope to cya ard soon aitez..
to the one i gave my love to now, i hope u will understand n dun hurt me. to the one i waited for, i learnt to let go n i wish u all the best.

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~bRiDeSmaiD 4 a DaY~

woke up late today. nearly 11. woke up wif calls frm my frens. haiyah...suddenly all cannot make it for ustazah wirdah wedding.so it wuz only me, sakinah n syahidah only who went for the wedding. wuz supposed to meet them at 12. but i went out of the hs 12 plus. hehekz...

met them at white sands, bought for ustazah a wedding gift. met hidayah n other 2 saturday's students. actually there are more which supposed to go too. in the end, only 6 of us. hehekz..pathetic. actually if combined 2 classes (sat n sun), got maybe nearly 20 ppl or more. but only 6 went! hehekz..

went up to ustazah's hs 2 meet her. she wuz getting ready. migawd...she wuz damn pretty!! maybe due to her makeup, but w/o it oso she looks chio. uh-oh..my costume wuz almost the same colour as ustazah. hehekz...become "bridesmaid".

then we couldn't wait for her to "sanding" at 3pm, so we ate first. it wuz so delicious, got brownies summore. hehekz. yum. den everything oso my frens bully me. everything oso i muz do first. hmph. den we paisei de...took pic wif ustazah alone. den me n syahidah sit on the 'pelamin' wif her. wahh..paisei de.. summore my costume almost same colour...everyone all look at us take photo. bluek.

she damn pretty. all of us were lyk jealous...imagining our wedding ready. hehekz. all cannot wait...haiyah...10 years down the road... lyk reall..hehekz..

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dragged myself to school again. yesterday dint go, so 2day hafta. wanted to take a cab but decided not to waste my money n juz suffer by taking the bus. on the bus 100, i wuz stucked wif a psycho sitting beside me. kept blowing in my face n hit me on my arm. i wuz too scared to move. luckily nth bad happened. phew. thank god.

painted banner till 3 plus. crapped wif ver n shir. had to scrub the floor coz we 'painted' some parts too. hehe. had some probs wif coy 2 ppl. why can't cedar guides be united as b4?! den all the way to potong pasir, ver wuz talking to sher. me n shir were lyk laadeedum-bored-. anyways, thanks ver. i owe u two yah. met irene at kovan for "lunch". yeah...crapped dere for nearly an hr. ver wuz lyk saying the hot pie doesn't taste nice. i said maybe it wuz mango pie sarcastically. n she said she tink so too. question marks on our 3 faces..laughing lyk mad dere. ver,yahlah..fai is damn nice..but i noe ur sacrifices will be worth it one day. den took a cab back home.

watched sg idol encore. walau i missed dey sing "the reason" when i go buy dinner. stupid makcik go cut queue. if not i could haf watched lor. walau.. taufik smile sooo cute okay...if only i haf a guy who has taufik's charm liddat. =) sighs... sheesh... i can't be drunk again...hellppp!!!

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weLL..wUz awokEn bY mY aunTy n graNdma in tHe m0rn. thEy haD caMe 0ver s0 eaRly in tHe morn. blah blah blah... sLack aRd. dEn maH daD asKed mE t0 heLp hiM cleAr uP somE stUff or hE woNt lEmme g0 f0r kAk Ain's chAleT. s0 yeAh, i heLped clEaneD n yEah i wUz 0ff aFt maGhrib prAyerS. mEt AiShy at tHe buS-sTop n wE waLkEd t0 AloHa rEsorT. iT wUz a nicE l0ng waLk fr0m d0wnt0wn eAst. kEna kaCau by s0me guYs. watEver lahh.. wE rEacHed nEarLy 8pm den sHy2 wAnt t0 g0 iN. whiLe waiTing t0 eaT, wE dRaggeD kak Ain wAlk2 arD the p00l. i drAggEd deM to tHe kiDDy plaYro0m. pLayEd wiF tHe bAlls. =)

mE & aiShy ate aLot. i tiNk wE to0k tHe f0od agAin 3 times. dEn aiShy wanTed to sTay tiLL 9 plus or wE w0uld mIss TauFik siNg oN ikHlaS. lUckilY wE dIn g0 0ff earLier. 0r wE w0uld haF misSed TauFik. miGawD, hE sanG thE beLaiAn jiWa so00o niceee..i wUz meSmeriZed. hopEfullY i dUn g0 dRunK aGain.

wE reAchEd hoMe oN tiMe b4 hE sTarteD t0 siNg anoTher s0ng. i wUz riGht, hE saNg i drEam aGain. shEEsh. Gg druNk. soo00 niCe...
b4 i g0...TauFik darLing...haPPy bUrfDae!!!

in my mind
i can climb
all the mountains that surround me
my spirit's there where eagles dare to fly

in my heart
there's a spark
that can light the world around me
an open door where im sure dreams are

doesnt matter if i win or the colour of my skin
cos the race is all abt believin in yourself

i dream, i can run
like the wind and be strong
when my heart just wants to give in
i dream, i can be the hero thats in me,
when i dream, i dream

theres a time in your life
when the odds are so against you
theres no defeat if all
you keep is pride

first or last
slow or fast
theres the dignity that makes you
keep driving on when

i dream, i can run
like the wind and be strong
when my heart just wants to give in
i dream, i can be the hero thats in me,
when i dream, i dream

of the moment that forever will be going
when the torch is passed
only dreams will last
that is shared by everyone

i dream, i can run
like the wind and be strong
when my heart just wants to give in
i dream, i can be the hero thats in me,
when i dream, i dream

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i'm pissed!!!

*inhales, exhales* i'm pissed at the fact i'm not allowed to go to kak ain's chalet which starts off tmr. kak ain planned so hard, invited us...n i can't go! my mum allow but my dad dun let lah. straight-no. ugh! i gez frm the 'family' only 2 gg, kak jannah n aishy. pissed. i'm juz hoping a miracle will happen tmr n my dad allow me to go. coz i'm sulking at him now. oh please, let me go!

well, at least today, i'm liberated frm the state of boredom. went down to sch early morning for banner painting. at least i'm more enthusiastic about painting rather than staying at hm. hah. everybody so stress sia, panic at the thot that deadline is next wk. we are pissed at one another. ordered macs delivery...waited for a bloody 2 hrs okay! when there is a nearby macs at potong pasir lor. walau. stupid macs!

aft i excused myself frm meeting, i went to meet kak nana at j8. eat swensens. well, despite cedar being near j8, i rarely go there. so i'm fascinated by the new shops there. did some shopping, n i freaked out when i spent alot. i miss u kak nana, finally get to meet up wif u today. how wonderful.

den at 6, i met my aunt at white sands. do some shopping. i'm abit psycho today. singing to myself in public. making jokes wif my grandma, aunty n uncle. shocking ppl...lyk got nth better to do. hee. well..the truth is.. sad to say..it's the time again..

okie...i gtg. n yeah, i'm freaking pissed at this new template. my tagboard become useless n ugly ready. to my sistaz who are still in the state of being drunk, i wish u a speedy recovery. *winks*
i'm hangover!!! wheeeee~

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i'm still drunk. n i've created this poem. when i'm drunk, alot of crappy things come out. so here is the nonsensical poem.

i'm drunk now
because of you
i'm drunk now
with the illusions of you

every day & every night
i wait for a sight of you
every day & every night
i went off knowing hope isn't dere anymore

i tried to get you
but i failed
i tried to get you
despite knowing i never will

to the one i gave my heart to now, i thank god for giving the chance to know you. to my companion, i thank you for giving me happiness. to the one that i had n lost, i thank god for giving me a chance to love u. to the one i longed for, i pray to god u'll be safe always.

to my sista, i'm sorry if i can't do anything to make u feel better. i can't be a good psychologist lyk his cousin could. juz be strong. n u noe that i'm always there if u nid a shoulder to cry on. to my dear lil sista, dun let the past haunt u again. that guy is not worth ur love.

i seriously nid a break. it's affecting my family coz of my attitude now. i'm sorry. but i'm seriously moody nowadays coz i'm drunk. to all those who had their hearts broken, stay strong. lyf's not over yet. to all those who longed to be wif the one u loved, let ur love go n it will come back to u one day.

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taufik rocks!

i'm damn happy taufik won. n his song i dream..it made me float. =) so here i am, still drunk. together wif my sistaz. when u're drunk, u tend to do crappy stuff. for me, i made crappy poems. hahax.
for the past 2 days, i've been running errands. yeah, ppl visiting. so my mum hafta cook. so i hafta help. quite tired lah. i did shopping juz now. n i had to carry loads of stuff. hahax.

all i can say, my holidays are damn boring. besides running the house, i will hafta study n study n study. can't even go out lah. well, yes i can. but lyk rarely. n my cuz is only coming to spore on the 24th. manx..if i noe...i could haf gone to melbourne first..n come back here wif dem. sheesh!!

okay...i seriously hafta start focus on my studies, if i wanna buck up. i can't even do simple sums. what's wrong wif me?!! sisz...help! tmr's gonna be last day of mdrsh. last 2 exam papers. den i'm free. hehe. gonna miss ustazah aishah. she's not gonna teach us next yr. boohoo..

okie..i nid to slp now. drunkards lyk me muz have early rest. hahax. takkaire ppl. happy holidays. =)

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